I cant explain this.

It has been while lah since i updated this blog. whatever , i just need to let this thing in my head and chest out.

Im 14 , at the age of 14 , we're so hyper and flirtatious and all. And i cant do all that because i have you. Like i have you for real. Maybe i took it too serious few years back , im still a kid , a teenager who doesn't know anything , i dont even have the chance to explore this teenage world yet. I acted like imma teenager when im 11 ? wtf alai ? WAKE UP. You're only 14 act like 14.

Hm im happy , i am. just there's part of my heart saying that i need to think carefully about the choices that i've made thru out 2010 & 2011. We all gonna be adults in few years to come , these choices gonna effect all of our lives later.

Im not a good girl , and im serious. I need to change myself. I may look strong on the outside but in the inside , god knows honey god knows.

I just want to be happy and urgh i just dont know what to say. I just dont know

Is this the end?
Then why does it feel
We'd only just begun
I thought we were done

I think I'll hang on
If you still want me
But if you don't
I guess I'll move on

And if you need me
Close your eyes and dream
I'll give you back your key
But will you be happy?
Will you be happy?

Said we'll leave it alone
But I wont be here long
And when I'm gone
I guess then we'll know

IN THE INSIDE GOD KNOWS